• It is ok to be Autumn!

    There seems to be this idea that moms, especially stay at home moms, that they should just love their lives all the time and keep their complaints to themselves. I love my kids more than anything, but it’s not all crafts, cookies and cartoons. It’s okay to say you don’t want to stay at home. It’s okay to say your kid is being a massive jerk today. It’s okay if you don’t love every single minute of every single freaking day. I’m not just Mommy, I’m Autumn too. And y’all Autumn gets restless and bored teaching her kid his ABC’s. She hates nursery rhymes. She hates pretending to be excited over…

  • Low times feel like being dunk into the Water, Clothes and all

    I’ve been writing and re-writing this post for a little bit now. The depression has been worse lately, whereas the anxiety seems to have improved a lot. I drove about half of the drive from Lufkin to San Antonio. I’m pretty proud of that. I didn’t have an anxiety attack and I wasn’t so stressed I I ground my teeth until I had a headache. I haven’t slept well the past two nights and it’s taking its toll. I got used to not having any real low days in awhile. Anxious? You betcha. But not low. Sometimes when things are really good for awhile I kind of forget what the…

  • Ask for Help, and do what makes you feel better.

    Most of my family and friends know that of January that Brett and I were expecting to receive into this world our first child in late August or early September. Unfortunately, our son Alexander went to heaven on March 27, 2018. We were blessed with many people around us that understood, and did not expect us to “get over it”. There was one that thinks that I should have already moved on and does not understand how the death of this little one can make my anxiety and depression worse. News Flash it does. I mostly avoid that person, however, he is the priest of my parish. I have many…